i'm teaching myself what i should've learned three years ago:
no, i'm not dead. sorry for not updating. i've been working like a dog to the point that it's not like i was talking about work all the time—it's that i didn't have anything to talk about except for work. i have officially become boring to myself, so i didn't feel like sharing stuff.
until further notice, i will blame it on the new york mild but depressing winter, hitting 9/11's six-month mark, too much unchallenging work, career/life uncertainty. today on the treadmill i opened the economist for the first time in months and read their report on television today. they did a better job articulating what i'd been thinking about interactive television for a while: that people aren't buying it because tv is the last thing that you want to interact with. the nice thing about tv is, like right now, i have it in the corner of my living room turned on (the virgin suicides, the scene where the boy steals into the girls' bathroom and breathes in one of their lipsticks) while i ignore it. it keeps you company and demands nothing but passivity and exorbitant cable bills. i recently finished the red tent by anita diamant for the book club that i joined but haven't attended yet; it was as much a pleasure as a relief to finally delve into a great book again. i feel that way about movies lately, too—that it's a relief when you finally see a good one (like the piano teacher, but goddamn, so freaking disturbing) after so many bad. i like this book club because i end up reading good stuff that i would never pick out on my own; there's a beautiful passage where dinah, the narrator, describes hearing harmony for the first time. starting to think about school again, even though all the attempts i've made at continuing and/or distance education have brought out my disciplineless streak. registered for the ny aidswalk yesterday—you can even make secure donations online—the things they're doing with computers these days. so click on that instead of my amazon wishlist since my birthday is coming up.
posted May 06, 2002 in delivery